January has always been one of the most challenging months for me. I’m not sure if it’s the start of the new year, new expectations that I set for myself or the fact that the holidays are over until February. It’s actually pretty sad, that we, consumers, wait for holidays to show up to go off and buy God-knows what that doesn’t make us any happier. Maybe, it does for a bit, but real happiness lies within. So, for me, a conditioned-consumer, January is hard. I love spending time with my family, but for some reason January sucks. I’ve always felt a hole inside of me during this time.
Unfortunately, this year made it even worse by not being able to see my mom. She had the C-word for such a long time, and I thought I nearly lost her. It was exhausting going to sleep every night not knowing if she would make it through the night. My winter blues only exponentially increase by not being able to see anybody from my family. I was exposed and felt like I was on house arrest. I’ve never been on house arrest, but I could just imagine how it feels. I worked from home, but it is such a pain in the ass since my two kids run around wild. I had to cook and clean, and the routine made me feel sad.
So I decided to change this. Now more than ever, I needed to get rid of my winter blues and pronto. I couldn’t live January feeling sad, lonely, filled with anguish. I had to do…
